Wednesday, May 5, 2004

why???? II

I always felt we had a good relationship.  Even some of my friends told me that they envied the relationship I had with my daughter.  I had arranged to move her out of college and was going to go up this graduation weekend.  I wonder when she was going to tell us that she wsn't coming home?

I feel so empty and a complete failure as a mother.

 

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

P.S. -- I'm still working on the scarf I made for you.  I'll get it done as soon as I can.

Anonymous said...

We do have a good relationship.  You're not only my mother, you're also my friend.  

This was one of the hardest desicions I've ever had to make.  Honestly, it wasn't easy.  I came really close to backing out of the entire thing because of how I thought you would react.  

I can't explain it.  I don't know why, but I really feel like this is somehting I need to do.  I know it's not going to be easy.  I know I'm going to be homesick.  But I still feel very strongly that I have to do this.

I put off telling you because I am a wuss.  I think if I avoid a situation maybe it will just disappear.  It hasn't worked in almost 22 years so you think I'd have learned by now.

You're not a failure as a mother.  If anything, your the complete opposite.  You've done a wonderful job raising me.  I'm sensible (for the most part).  I have more common sense then the general public.  I'm smart and have ambition.  I'm caring and a good friend.  I respect myself and other people.  I'm open minded, compassionate, sensitive to people, feel like I can take on anything and a shit load of other stuff thanks to you.  All my friends are jealeous of you and tell me how cool they think you are.