Saturday

I am frustrated with the snow.  At the beginning of the season the meotoroligist forcast was to be a mild and dry winter.  I think I will stick with the Farmers Almanac.   They predicted a bad winter.   If you thought January was bad someone said that February will be worse.   And next week is Ground Hog Day.  I would like to drivve to   Punxatawney  (or however it is spelled) and smack that groundhog on his head.  Just kidding about smacking the wildlife.

I was outside trying to get rid of the snow on my steps and sidewalk, but under the snow is a one inch layer of ice.  I put some rock salt on it but it is only 6 degrees outthere and I dont think it will do any good at all.  One of those 90 degree days in July would be looking mighty good right about now.

Nothing new other than the weather.  I am worried about my father.  He is 86 and since she had two nose bleeds and nasal polyp surgery he just hasn't been feeling good.   I think that his hemoglobin is low (it was 6 with 4 units of blood after that) but with the surgery you can lose aunit there alone.  At least he is breathing very well now.   He is a little short of breath and geting forgetful.  I dont think he is delevoping Altzheimers because he sit and thinks up all kind of things imaginable.  He is the type of person that if it isn't a problem he will make it a problem.   Every medication known to mankind upsets his stomach.   He only takes vitamins. 

 

He is planning his funeral.  He really hasn't been well since my mother died and that was 9 years ago.  To him it was like it just happened.  She had a malignanct and he thinks the doctors killed her  but I know that it was the cncer that killed her.  He said the doctors told him she would like 6 years with the type she had.  She had ca of the bile duct, and she actually liked 4 years which is astonishing.  The original doctor gave her 6 month to a year.  As an RN I know, but you can't explain that to him because he chooses not to believe.  I hope if I get like that someone will kick me in the arse.

 

Sunday

It is Sunday and I finally got around to writing in my journal.  Yesterday was a day at work, on call.   The only good thing about call is that the 24 hours count a three days and it makes the next week better.  Only two days to work.  It was a "light" day.  We only had two operations.  Both of them were elderly and very sick.  The people are getting sicker  in the hospitals.   I guess it is because in the US people don't die, they die because the thought is medicine should keep them alive forever and if they don't someone did something wrong. As an RN I would not encourage anyone to pursue this career.  No matter what the nurse is always "wrong"

Maybe it is the whole philosophy in the US  is that no one is responsible for them selves but everyone is resaponsible for someone else.  The thing that I find most offensive are the instructions on things like hammers and stepladders.   Things that should be self evident.  I also feel, that people who file these nonsense lawsuits out to be changed when they loose.  Maybe we wouldn't have so many.  Like the woman in Philadelphis who filed a lawsuit that the cat scan dye caused he to loose her psycic ability.  Give me a break

Well, gtg.  Got an IM from the daughter

Friday

Just sort of sitting here listening to the "radio"  I am working tomorrow, actually "on call" and captured in the hospital.   I hope we are not too busy, because I am tired and althought it goes faster, I would prefer not to work too hard.

 

The greatest thing is the aol "IM".  You can keep tract of your kid at college and know by their "away Message" exactly what they are up to.   I really wonder how it was in the 60's when the only way you could keep track of your child was one of the letters from college.   Another think I thought that would be good is one of those "picture" phones.  Then if the kid tried to tell you they were at the library, you could tell them to take a picture and show me.

I think I could be a detective.   What is it that your kids think your a really stupid, but you would never admint to them what you know what they are up to.  These kids never think you know that because you did all the same stuff yourself when you were your age.  Maybe they will realize that when they have kids of their own.

I guess that is really it for tonight.  It is too cold I know that.

 

 

Thursday

Well, I don't recall how many days since I wrote in this journal.  Today I was off, as well as yesterday.  I have an unusual schedule.  I work in a operating room and am a CRNA.  Nurses anesthetist.  When we have a "call" it is for 24 hours.  So, during the day; I have a light assignment and then stay at the hospital till the next morning.  I have a "call room" and can sleep during the downtime.   Well, I was "on call" on Tuesday  so then I had 2 days off.  The 24 hours counts in my weekly schedule.   I have never worked the 24.  I usually sleep, althought sometimes it is interupted.

 

The weather here in the NE is very cold.   I like winter better than summer.   When I am cold I can warm up, but when it is hot, it is more difficult to get cold.  

 

My husband and I bought this house about 30 years ago.  We moved around the world and country throughout our lives but we had rented this "starter" home each time we left.   Right now it is just the right size.  All the rooms are one one floor, your don't really think about that until you get some aches and pains.   I can imagine how difficult it is for seniors who have to go upstairs to the BR or sleep.  That can be a reqal problem.  

 

Not to mention that all we paid for the house was $21,000, and it has been LONG paid off.   I guess the cost now would be about $125,000.  That really boggles my mind. 

 

I guess there is nothing else to write about.  So, till tomorrow.  bye

Thursday

Well, I had intended to write everyday,.   Somehow I didn't get to do that.   I feel like one of my new years resolutions have been shatered, although, I didn't make a resolution to do this.  

Really, I didn't make any resolutions.   I have decided to make each day and month a extended quest to live healthy and be happy.   It is difficult to go outside and walk when it is 15 degrees.   I like winter, but when it gets below 20 I feel the chill.

 

I guess nothing really eventful is going on.  Tomorrow my daughter and I are going to a flower show.  Then on to a art museum to see the art of the Ottoman Empire  and off to do lunch.

She will be going back to college in three days.  And the happiest part of that is now I get my garage back.  The person who leaves first sits outside.

 

 

Well, I finally got this correct on  the tool bar, it was just a coincidence that I did.    Went to work today, and I am REALLY tired of working.  If someone would pay me to stay at home, I wouldn't have any incentive to get up and go. 

All weekend it rained, and rained, and rained.   It is had been snow we would have had 25 to 30 inches.  I am tired of winter, but nothing can be done about that.  My pet peeve is my daughter is home from colllege and she is in MY garage.  I really HATE to park outside and have to scrape the windshield and wait for the car to warm up.  Iwould like to get a remote auto start, but I can;t have it on my car. 

 

Still working on this

I added what I thought was this part of the journal to the toolbar, but what I got was a form to start a journal.  I really have to figure this out.

I don't consider myself to be computer illiterate, but this is causing a slight problem.  I also wish it had a spell check, my mistake is mostly typos.  Or I type a word and ponder it for a while and wonder if it "looks" correct.

Sunday

Well, I just check the part of my journal and I guess this really works.  I will try to add some every day.   I was always fascinated about journal found that were written eons ago and to discover what life was like for women then.     The routinte of their daily lives, and what was important to them.  Their lives are vastly different but the thoughts, feelings, and problems that they had are really universal.

I just set this up and was wondering exactly what I should put in her.  I guess the most difficult is setting it upp and familiarizing myself with the procedure...  I always thought that I would like to start a journal, but, I wish I would have done it MANY MANY years ago.   At that time I was living in Asia and would have ben nice to put down my thought about living in another country.   Expecially one whose culture was so different from my own.